Saturday, June 24, 2017

Ups and downs.

I have had an absolutely sleepy saturday today.I was drowsy throughout,I literally had to pick myself up and walk down to TESCOs the long way to buy some food but mostly to give myself some exercise.I am waiting for my laundry so I thought I would let some thoughts at the back of my mind just seep out.There is chill in the air outside and I have hayfever.I can go the whole year round with it in this country and my patients tell me this is common.
Today early in the morning my cousin sent me a single line message ,'S is nomore'.I felt sad.Now how do I know S?One day out of the blue I got a desperate phone call from my cousin.A friend of hers from school who had been instrumental in supporting her baby steps into Australia had suddenly out of the blue been diagnosed to have GB ca.She was young ,may be in her late thirties,looked younger,sensible ,hard working .She wanted to know the prognosis.Looking at the staging and the extent of the disease it did not look good.SO the parents decided to bring her back to India.When she was in Delhi,I went with my cousin to see her.To me she looked extremely chalky, but my cousin insisted that it was her usual colour.She looked tired,thoughtful and talked quite a bit.Her mother ordered KFC from the mall in Vasant Kunj where they were renting a house.I felt mighty awkward to eat anything in that sombre environment although it was well past lunch time.
My cousin had shared the gospel with her but she hardly responded.Her mother had reached a stage where she would request prayer for her but would simultanaeouly be knocking all the other doors.
I took my cousin through the process of how a patient with gall bladder ca with liver mets would ultimately progress.
She called me up again to let me know that she was going through hepatic encephalopathy.She was having hallucinations and could not sleep at night.One such time she asked her mother who she was?When her mother reminded her that she was her mother ,I believe she reiterated ,no-you are lying,I am alone I have nobody.I am a doctor.I have learnt in life to pull myself back from emotional situations to save myself.Like my sister-in-law said ,In Sikkim,peopele are tough.We cannot afford to dwell on our losses so we move on ,sometimes all of it looks vey cold.
In the midst of it all my mother lets me know that the flowers I had planted by the supposed pool at home had sprouted one of which had started blooming and the other had grown shoots which would flower on for a very long time.My sister in Australia had brought a whole lot of flower seeds.One afternoon I planted a few of them in a corner of a plain space and forgot to mark it.Next few days I found our hand walking all over the place while doing his chores.I had given up hope that anything would sprout but it has .Life has sprung overcoming the hopelessness of the situation and it was my mother who spotted it and urged my brother to photograph it and send it to me.Praise God for my mother.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Countries in exile?

Decided to walk into the baptist church today.A beautiful time of worship and the reading and the preaching was from the book of Daniel.These are confusing times indeed.It was a poignant service.The pastor ended the sermon with a statement which touched my heart .He said,'As a nation ,we are entering into exile.'
In the old testament it was the unfaithfulness of God's people that led them into slavery and exile.As they sat by the rivers of Babylon ,they wept when they remembered Zion.God raised up Nehemiahs and Ezras along the way and there were people like Daniel and his friends who were not sold out to the ways of power.They lived lives seperated for God even when under subjugation.Such was the power of God amidst them that even through the fire God was amidst them ,lions mouth were shut before them.
The Lord will raise up Daniels ,Ezras and Nehemiahs even as we see a trend of Babylon taking precedence in the way the world as a whole seems to be moving.
The call of the spirit during these times seems to be to servanthood and humility in Christ because as Mary prays-'...He has performed mighty deeds with his arm;he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts,He has brought down rulers from their thrones,but has lifted up the humble.....'
All said and done God alone is in control.
'Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.....'
The question is what is our understanding of Kingdom of God?
My sincere prayer is that our understanding will allign with the way Christ envisioned and lived it.
To Christ alone be all the honour and glory and grace.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Encounters

So far it has been a good induction.Much more systematic than the earlier one.Though I am on the ward rota ,they have been kind enough to let me get used to the system but from the second day onwards I am slowly getting the hang of the software which looked formidable the first day.
While I was seeing a patient in ambulatory care the first day a few students entered the unit.I was too engrossed in getting to know the system so did not bother with them.On the second day I got talking to one of them who had an Indian face.She told me her ancestors were from Maharastra.Both her parents were doctors in London and she was studying medicine in Kings college. She was from a Hindu background but had accepted Jesus Christ as her personal savior and was the only believer in the family.
She told me very assertively it is the only true thing isn't it?Then she told me ,'I pray everyday and read the bible ,do you?I was taken aback by her directness but my eyes were moist .What an amazing encounter!
I look forward to many more encounters like this. ..