Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Reading Tozer.

Reading Tozer inspires me a lot.I picked up this book in CMC the last time I was there.Tozer writes about the mystery of the Holy Spirit.
I was absolutely touched by the illustration he makes from the Noah's ark about the raven and the dove being let out to test for the receding of waters.
The water was the judgement of God on the earth.The raven when released ,thrives on the floating corpses,desolation and the civilisation that was built on the floating dead.
Noah releases the Dove ,she could not stand the judgement of God which was everywhere,she came back,so Noah pulled her back in.
When the water receded,Noah releases the dove and when she finds a dry land where she can light upon she does not come back .
What is the judgement of God?
Judgement of God is everything that the Holy spirit would find distasteful in our lives.
Just how important is the role of repentance in our lives if we want a clean slate.
Tozer distinguishes between the Holy spirit 'residing in a believer' and Holy spirit lighting down as seen during revivals.The Holy spirit yearns to light down upon believers,cities ,countrys and town.
A clean slate before the spirit can only come with repentance and repentance is costly

Sunday, February 23, 2014

The last few days.

A lot of things have happened in the past few days.
I have been anticipating a move and now I understand I go to Lakhnadown.I don't know too much about the place apart from the few gossips that come in now and then.
I am surprised at myself at the way I am not all curious about the place.I need to pick up my phone and dial a few numbers which I am too lazy to do.I am curiously neutral ,neither nervous nor excited just perturbed,praying and wondering why the Lord wants me there,for how long and why!
I make it a point when I am in HCH to walk up to the map of India outside the HCH OPD put my hands over the land marked Lakhnadown and pray over it.
In the mean time my cousin dear has contracted this deadly cancer.
Squamous cell ca of the gullet.Fit as can be,keeping himself in the straight and narrow he thought he had everything under control ,he was exercising everyday for two hours till the radio and the chemotherapy started simultanaeously last week.God had other plans.
We all are matter of fact about the whole matter.
I was telling him,'all of us have cancer,yours is diagnosed so take it one day at a time' and I meant it.



Tuesday, February 4, 2014

The first cut is the deepest...remembering NJH.

I spent the evening with folks from Satbarwa.
Senior nurses come away for six months ,difficult times to be away from the family.
The eyes whelled up even as they saw me.
I remembered so many times in my younger days I had been impatient with some of them hoping against hope that they could be more efficient.Now I see them almost after three years- older, tired ,lost,in a new situation and they look beautiful to me,every line in their face telling me stories.
I drank tea and made some pan-cakes for them even as they up-dated me on the news of their family and old friends from Satbarwa.
Jeevan had sent me NJH calenders and I was deeply touched to see the format,the verses,the pictures.
All the saints engraving their signatures in the Book of life,some getting justification on earth and some faithfully giving their best in difficult circumstances for the Lord because human beings sell us short.
Thank you Lord for the testimony of Navjivan,I take heart from it every now and then.
 

Monday, February 3, 2014

I do,my Lord and my God

I travelled around the central India.I spent two full days behind my friend Grace's pallu in Champa.
Years just fade away when one is with friends.We chatted and chatted and chatted .....reminiscing,remembering,laughing.
These are friends who have seen me through literal rain and sun-shine.
Met Mr Jone Wills who was our Christmas father in Satbarwa.
Again laughed through the memories of  those learning days ...
I travelled through the heat and dust to Jagdeeshpur..met some old friends there too.
I did not travel to Lakhnadown although I wanted to meet Muani and was wondering what she was up to.
I have been praying on this movement thing.
Everytime I plan a move I get a clear leading from the Lord.
This time my call is to 'faithfulness' and whenever I close my eyes I see the Lord asking me 'Do you trust me?'