I don't write too often because for one I do not own a functional laptop.I have to sneak into my brothers whenever he takes a break from heavy geology work he seems to be neck deep in, all the time.That is his speciality by the way.Everything is in place for now.I am done with most of the paperworks and another fortnight or so should see me in England if it is the Lord's will.In the meantime I am preparing to travel to Delhi for my paper submission,etc.My friend Anu has been literally hauling me on her shoulders helping me every step of the way.She was my room-mate in college some twenty years ago.We have remained friends.
People often wonder aloud why I do what I do?
My cousin always says that I am someone who is basically a 'Head ' girl!I do function with my heart as well but not to make overtly stupid decisions.
I know when to walk away ,when to walk towards ,when to say 'enough!' on most occassions.
My mother has full faith in the goodness of all of her children and sensibility of some.She says so.
That does not mean I am successful all the time but If I see wisdom in something I am willing to stick it out.
I like to surround myself with progressive people but my heart goes out to genuine people.Destructive toxic people I am allergic to.I might for the sake of affection tolerate them for a while but I make things clear and I do not struggle distancing myself from them too hard.I am only too aware that I am also not immune to getting toxic myself.I have often hated myself while I have raved and ranted to my friends,My friends have lovingly listened to me and have gently guided me that is why we have remained friends and I pray we will remain so for the rest of our lives.
Unlike most of India,I am I think programmed to work unselfishly.I get great joy in making life easier and helping other people better their lives.I try not to miss oppurtunities in doing that.My colleagues often point out that I give my heart and soul for whatever I put my mind to.You will see me almost collapsing on my legs at the end of a hard day in the ACU.I would like to think that when I put my head on the pillow my patients are well taken care of.
I enjoy quiet as much as anyone else but I relish some type of art too.Instrumental music,classical,sufi,gospel.I have been trying to listen to the current western charters but I dont seem to like them too much.Bruce Springsteen surprised me with some of his recent lyrics.I enjoy some movies...,most form of art has to touch a chord somewhere....sometimes it is so with people and situation too.
Now What the heck have I written?..This is what happens when you have an open laptop in front of you and some time in hand in between cranial nerve examination.