I picked up 'Lean in' at random from the kindle store because I wanted to read a good book which would perhaps challenge me to an extent.I am not sure my choice was right.The author has written a very down to earth account of balancing work life and family life for women.After sometime It became my bathroom read and I thought I heard a lady ramble on and on about a topic which in the male bastion could be concluded in a single sentence.
I don't mean to shortsell the book.For women with children and pregnancy to balance with a demanding job there might be a point and the point is one must lean in especially during those times and not make your carrier secondary with examples of how women have done it.
I just picked up the wrong book it seems.
In 2005 ,when I attended the Haggai seminar in Singapore ,we were made to draw a point diagram depicting the various areas of my life and I was taken aback to see that my diagram looked like a propeller jet heading towards one direction.I had to literally stand back and rearrange a few things.I am mighty glad that I have the luxury to do it from time to time.Almost ten years hence I find the jet blunted and has put on some flab on the sides and it has become more rounded but has a long way to go.
Sometimes I surprise myself.
I was telling a colleague the other day.that if I had not come to England when I did last year,I was at the verge of giving up my medical carrier.For me the whole thing was beginning to feel like a noose around my neck.The joy had gone out of it.I had some time to just sit at home and ponder under the cool shelter of my family's unconditional love.My parents are allright with whatever decision I make and when I asked my mother if I could just stay at home she seemed at absolute peace about it but I have to live with my decisions so I tread carefully.
My seniors at work keep asking me if I would like to specialise in something.What they mean in Indian context is 'superspecialise' in something.The answer I gave them would have flummoxed them so I just said a simple ,'not in their speciality ',the correct answer I guess would have been 'my thoughts are more along the lines of how I can contribute towards a community especially the younger generation in the times to come.I have some ideas in my head,prayer in my heart,and a faith in my soul that the Lord will guide me to my destiny in Him,by His grace and in His strenght,if it is the Lord's will.
As the winter sets in ,for the first time in my life I am beginning to appreciate daylight,I have always taken it for granted ,it seems.Everyday when I get out into the open after work ,the night sky greets me.It is not uncommon to see me sitting out in the bench eating my lunch in the afternoon.At times ,it is freezing cold but I still covet the daylight so I enjoy the time and I do get a few strange looks from people passing by.I enjoy the nip in the air,the autumn colour of the sky and the paraphenalia ,just the unpolluted ,clean air and I like to walk...thank God for these simple but precious joys of life.
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