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All these pieces,broken and scattered...

Today I heard that one of my favourite patients passed away.It left me very sad because she was such a nice and a beautiful person.I attended to her on atleast three of her admissions and she was the gentlest patient,most encouraging and always cheerful,grateful inspite of the difficult life she would have had socially and physically.
That is the thing with being posted in the colder wards ,the patients grow on you and before you know they make an impression on your mind.
This admission I did not meet her because I was posted elsewhere and I was shocked to hear the news.
Every time she was in the hospital in her manifold admissions regardless of where she was ,if I passed by ,we would always greet each other like friends.My stone cold doctor's heart actually hurt to know of her passing away.The world will be poorer by a rich soul eaten away too young by alcohol.
There was another incident that struck me today.We had to reveal a tough diagnosis to one person and even as a senior explained the situation I was struck by the way he received the information.There was no change in his expression,his jet blue eyes continued to look at us with the same expression as he clarified his various doubts.I wondered to myself ,how come the news had not made any difference to him?
Minutes later I found a gentleman from an adjacent bed sitting beside him with a sad expression on his face but he still looked unaffected,and then towards the end of the day I saw him sitting on his bed,lost in his thought ,it was like as though things were just sinking in.
I walked up to his bed and generally asked after him and gave him an update about his case,he thanked me umpteen number of times with such grace but what I actually wanted to do was to thank him.
I can easily understand why our Lord Jesus loved to be with certain kind of people.They are as human being so much more beautiful,fragile ,broken ...in many ways so much more emptied of self and definately more likeable anyday.

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