He will hold me fast -...

It has been a month now since I joined the government service as a physician .This is my home-town.I am slowly but gradually getting to meet all the old people and new.It has been an interesting month.my esteemed collegues have been kind enough to fill in in the aberrations that seem to surround the cases that I see here.There is Molly my dermatologist friend who never fails to support me with dermatology consults, Dr Augustine supports me with cardiology consults,Dr Santosh ,Dr Ashita ,Dr Hansdak and one time I even called up Roshine in Makunda to find out if she had seen a case of a herb-poisoning.AIIMS narcotic cell seemed clueless.

I see a lot of alcohol related problems..encephalopathy,variceal bleed,withdrawal,fatty liver .I have seen a few freak constrictive pericardites with calcified pericardium,scrub typhus,IHDs,large number of Gout,RA ,NCDs,SLE,probable AAA,cardiomyopathies and the list goes on.

I am doing my own bit of helping out by continuing to help my juniors back in Kachwa with medical cases.

At home ,the two children had gone home for a fortnight to be with their parents and they have come back now.

Today we finished the pending work of putting the slab over Apala's grave.It was a busy morning with the pastors over for a time of prayer and lunch, Mercy's mother come over with an aunt to reach Mercy back.

My mother is doing well.Though not very mobile she keeps herself usefully occupied with various creative exploits.My family has been immunised so I am a bit relieved but I still am very careful .Just the other day one of our colleagues tested positive for covid .

The last week has been a little crazy.I found myself waking up at the middle of the night with a deep emotional pain.I had to literally get down on my knees and pray through it.Not sure whether it is the hormones or just flesh.I said so much to my family.They have been extremely careful with me.I seem to have got over it early this morning.The pain is gone.

Not sure if it was Paul Washer's quote this morning which did it.

'Unless you cut yourself off from the arm of flesh,you will never see God work.'

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A self retreat.

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