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Dhan Singh lost four issues to an unexplained hypertension his wife suffered during pregnancy.Four issues in a row,his fervent prayer request every christmas would be for a child.Dhan Singh is a watchman in the hospital.One evening while I got talking to one of the staff nurses she told me about his bane. We started praying seriously and somehow the lord put the burden in our hearts to pray.It became one of our prayer points in the chain prayer list. One fine day Dhan Singh came to us with the good news that his wife had conceived but along with it was an uncontrollable blood pressure of more than 200/130 consistantly. We put her on anti-hypertensives but she just could not tolerate the medication beyond a certain point. Pray,we did. Consulting other gynaecologists we got a picture of how bleak the chances of the baby making it, was. The follow up USG showed a small for date baby. I went home for the holidays and when I reached back Dhan Singh was waiting for me to come back. ...

Anita was brought to us by a local family .They were relatively well off and was being looked after by a lady doctor during her ante-natal period.One morning she perceived decreased foetal movement.Just a week short of her expected date of delivery she went to the doctor and was told that the baby had passed away in the womb. Her husband and a paraphenalia of around twenty people came to us for the termination of her pregnancy with her USG report. We induced her and we waited.Since she was a primae we anticipated a longer haul but at the end of 24hours she was only 6cms dilated so the the bystanders insisted we do a caeserian section and take the dead baby out. We took her in to the operation theatre with a heavy heart.A dead male baby over three kilos in weight was delivered.I felt extremely sad and beaten at the end of it. As soon as she was out of the ketamine haze ,she asked-'Where am I?'. We told her she was in the mission hospital. 'Oh I was really going place...

The other day one gentleman whose old mother had had hysterectomy a month earlier landed up in my OPD with another woman who had been advised hysterectomy by an obstetrician in the city.We decided to post her the next day ,when he enquired if he could get his mother over for a review although he stressed that she had no problem whatsoever. I said yes.He was amongst others, a spectater to my great fall in the OPD so anticipating I would not be too well the next day he brought his mother a day later.This elderly lady with joy all over her face entered my OPD.I went through the checklist with her and everything seemed to be in place when she gently reminded me that she had had this unresolved PUO forever prior to her treatment here.Suddenly everything came flooding back. Every day of my life I see so much of God's grace that sometimes I need gentle reminders like this to remember all of them. This particular family had had a bad experience in the past in the hospital.It had built up t...

Today on my way to a consultation with an orthopaedician in jabalpur we walked into an assembly of God church for the morning service and a preacher originally from Congo but based in UK had this revelation for me from the word of God. 'Jacob I have loved ,Esau I have hated'. The children of Isaac and Rebecca were born due to earnest pleading by Isaac to the Lord and it happened after twenty five years of their marriage.Isaac was a man with whom God himself had covenant and so it was to happen sooner or later. Rebecca conceives,right from the womb there is a struggle between the two children. And yet as the children grow up it is Rebecca who turns out to be a woman of revelation and not Isaac who is actually the man with the covenant with God. 'Jacob I have loved and Esau I have hated...'thus says the Lord God. It was Rebecca who loved after the manner of God and not Isaac who actually went after his feelings and flesh. If what Isaac willed would have happened perhaps ...

I tumbled down from a height of around 3 feet from the ground on my head today.By God's grace some one broke the full impact of the fall trying to hold me back so that saved my neck from breaking so now I have a sprained neck and a shoulder for a few days. Had a busy night trying to resuscitate a patient of brain-stem bleed with a tracheostomy tube who had most probably developed a nosocomial pneumonia-I did not hold much hope for him but strange things happen here as limited as the facilities are.He was breathing better and his temperature had considerably come down.We had to knock doors of the local pharmaccies and managed to get some leincomycin,we had amikacin and pip-taz with us. Sanish is back so I have the luxury of having someone to take the call at night. Tomorrow I have a hysterectomy posted at eight in the morning.Hopefully my neck and my shoulder will relax with the analgesic to allow me to do the surgery uninterrupted. I have also intrestingly been analysing the stats ...

It was a sad day indeed for me.I have always knowingly or unknowingly protected my parents from the idiosyncracies of my life.They were insistant that they wanted to visit me.I am in my forties,period. I made arrangements to organise a visit for them in my place of work in winter last year. We never realise how ineffective the testimonies of our lives are to others.I always thought I was doing a good job but mothers being what they are,see beyond everyone else. We live sad lives isolated socially,spiritually and physically.Even great missionaries in the past had solid prayer and social backing from their home church,but we have nothing,nothing at all.Our brokenness has reached such a level but we put on coloured lenses and live in castles of our own accepting some,rejecting some, according to the measures we make with our feeble find.We live defeated lives,I think atleast I do.I always wonder how the Lord sees it all. This year I thought I would invite my parents over.My sister told me...